maybe it was never love😞😞

Maybe I never loved the cold, I just hated the way the sun burnt my skin. And I preferred the cold to the sun . If that Is the case Maybe I never loved you. I just preffered you among the others. Maybe I don't miss you . it's just that I was used to the idea of you for a long time I forgot how to live without you. Maybe you were never an addiction just a habit I had developed. Maybe I just envisioned too much about my future with you that now no one is tall enough or cute enough because at the end of the day I want a replacement of you, a duplicate of you and that will never come. Maybe that's why I feel like I'm addicted to you. Now it's either everyone cares to much or too less because I had envisioned your side of love and that's all I want nothing more. Maybe I was too quick to convince my mind what love was, that love hurts . Now my heart is just plain and colourless all grey and black, nolonger excited when someone tells me something sweet because it's not your voice and I will never be. Or maybe I was in love just too early I'll never fall again😞😞