Maybe I'm living you

I cover my ears while I sleep I dream of us too loud people look for their sunshine while I'm busy gazing the thundercloud Everytime I look at you with my heart beating in my eyes it pulls a string in me and I stay somewhere in melancholy You are four fingers away blooming roses in my heart tearing it, soaking my lungs in blood I sink deeper into this paradox oblivous what I'm falling into Maybe I'm living you Instead of loving you