MASSIVE TALENT

THE UNBEARABLE WEIGHT OF MASSIVE TALENT: Before i came here, i was told that life is beautiful. And when i came, it was different. I had to find the beauty of life, like it was a task for me. They told me that nothing comes free; you have to earn it. So i worked, i worked hard on myself, on my thoughts, on my feelings, on my personalities, and on my decision, yet i failed at choosing the right things for me. I ended up choosing the wrong people at the wrong time. I chose my darker self to grow up in the nights and my good self to pretend during the day. I chose to build up different personalities for different people. I ended up choosing the thoughts that haunted me the most and i kept thinking about them . I created a layer for them and now being someone i would never have thought of, i turned weak with time. It's true that i worked hard, but in the wrong direction, because i had no one to tell me which one was right or wrong. This way, i felt more safe within myself. but later in life, when i didn't find it beautiful, I questioned myself about why i did that. And i questioned; " Is life beautiful for anyone out there?, Or we all are just trying to find the beauty". And i think no one had found it at all.