mascara tears

mascara tears stain my cheeks my vision blurs and the voices around me fade into silence I hold my knees tight to my chest and try to catch my breath then I slowly slip into what I can only describe as a house of nightmares in my head if only they knew would keep on at me about things so small if they knew what I'd been through would keep on at me for being late in the mornings because I'm too scared to leave my house alone or would they be softer or would they treat me like a complete child I'm not sure what's worse the feeling of being alone and that no one understands or the feeling of being treated like a young child like Im only now learning how to walk and talk I'm not sure but what I do know is that it hurts being alone hurts the most but the feeling of letting everyone around you down hurts so much more than any graze or cut or bruise...