mamma's first and my last

When i was at my happy moments She was trying hardly to breath When i was laughing she was loosing her breaths bit by bit When my laughs ended her breaths ended too I can laugh again and again anymoment but she cant breath again, when i get to know the truth she already left and left me much memmorys When i get to know she gone The world infront of me become black like how she felt when she closed her eyes, When i get to know she gone I was strugling to breath like she felt at her last moments Even it was my first experiences but for her it was last She didnt even botherd to listen how i felted that moments She didnt even waited to see me iam realising the face i hold in my heart and memmorys fading day by day How was her voice sounded like..? How was her cooking tasted like..? How was her care felt like..? How was her smell...? How how how was it...? Maa can i feel those again in this life...?