Mama I'm Sorry

Oh my mama I love you so. I'm sorry if I'm not enough, or if I'm too much, or if I'm both all at once somehow. But just in general: I'm sorry. You've been through so much and you deserve the world but you only ended up with me and for that I'm so sorry. I know I'm too much and I constantly scare you but to top it all off I'm here because you were raped. I'm sorry you have to see me everyday. Do I remind you of him? Mama I know you struggle and I wish you could tell me everything. I wish I could know everything you're going through and I wish I could hold you. I want to hold you and stroke your hair like you've done for me all these years and I want to help and comfort you. You will cry, and I will cry for you, and we will cry together for each other. My Mama, I love you. and for that, I'm sorry.