make sense of it

There's a girl with all these hopes. that at first glance, you see a glowing light shining out of her like an angel. that can fill a room of darkness with a light. anyone who crosses her path can't help but smile. little do they know she lives in complete darkness. all she sees are the demons that surround her. that keep trying to reach out to her and get a hold of her dying soul. as she drives down the road, she can't help but think, "What if she just drives down this hill?" or should she quickly put the car in park and jump off this bridge. what if she just ramms full speed to the person in front. somehow, she makes it safe to her destination. but as she walks in, there is a blade in the front counter from her. All of sudden, a harsh deep voice tells her to grab it, and it will be fun. Let's play a game quickly, grab it, and stab your heart. or better yet, pass it quickly through your throat. Just test it out. Nothing bad will happen, and you will soon be with me.