Luminous - Dazai Osamu [Bsd]

It's dark I can't see But wait, I have to open my eyes Stupid me My lids, as heavy as the earth itself Lift up, I'm blinded by the light of hell A kid, the mirror shows a little child A monster, a beast, disgusting, not me Its skin is pale and embellished by scars There's bandages wrapped around my heart My throat, my eye, my hands and feet I shift my head so I can't breathe It's nice, it's comforting Like it's not me committing sin Like for once it's not my fault That there is harm being caused Our gazes intertwined by hate The demon mimicking my face It's eye is amber, brown but dark Too bleak to be a humans part Calloused hands trace lines on hollow cheeks Their nails carve scratches into me A tear of red drips down my lip Where the demons teeth have bitten it It's fingers lift from my pavemented face A pink hue where they've been leaving trace Like blush, one could actually think That I've been never faking it That the smile appearing, so unreal Reveals the truth I've only kept concealed