lucky

"Happy I thought I was. Happy I thought I could be. Happy I shall never be. To imagine you with me, is something that I dream to be. A lucky man that man is, as he has a part of you that isn't for me. The smile, the glance, the thoughts, the laughs, the plans, the hugs, the gifts, and the love. Perhaps things I'll never get to experience with someone else which is fine with me, but to not experience it with you is a total lost of me. You're always with someone. Always active. At some point sad, and at some point happy. But it all balls up to that you're with someone lucky. These thoughts are not healthy, nor can they ever be. But I hope I could be so lucky, just to have you here with me." - Feb 12, 2024