Loyalty is Hated

Im disgustingly loyal In a way any person should not be Everyday day I wake up look around And only look at the one person I love Every hour, every god damn second He's the only one that goes through my mind i've only found him attractive I wake up I look for my phone With the hesitation of seeing if he texted Usually he does But that day he didn't wake up Searching for me Instead he went on his phone And called another girl cute Yk what I did? Nothing I stayed Me? Staying? Yeah thats what I did It hurts so bad Something in me that day left Maybe a piece of love I had for him? Everyday that goes by after that moment I think about it A lot I gave him another chance Chance after chance Why did I do that? It's becuase I love him He's a bigger part of my life Then my own self I hate the fact I let myself down Well I brought him up He controls my mind Everything I think of Is about him Through the thought of him at night Before I fall asleep To when I wake up in the morning Im loyal. I'm so damn loyal It makes me sick talk about me I don't care but talk about him ill scream at you until i can't speak ill protect his name but im not sure if he protects mine but i'm loyal tha'ts why.