lover and a gamer

I got attached to two boys in my life till now They both were strangers but the Second one made me cry while the first one never let a single tear escape from my eye the second one ignored my texts but the first one never ignored me or never replied me late the second one said that he cares about me but wasn't there when I needed him on the others hand the first one never said that he cares about me or love me but was always there for me even if he rejected me the second one breaked me buttt.. the first one healed the second one gets angry when I ask him about other girls but the first one never talked to other girls NOW I REALISED WHY HE WAS 'FIRST'