love...broken

we talk about the old times when we dated made love all night to new heights held so tightly to each other we thought nothing could even break us apart not once but twice then I was pregnant, 19, terrified of my family reaction because of our age difference I let them lead me I pushed you away so far away we both found our way into arms of people that never meant what we did to each other hearts are broken 💔 we both just kept going thinking the other didn't care but now it seems we should have just stopped locked ourselves in a room once and for all and not came out until we had figured it out. we could have, we should have why? dear love of my life, fire of my soul I hate this you know. I know you're my friend but I find myself being like my mother and pining for something that will just never be. we talk and I feel just like I'm 19 again and then we hang up and I see where life has taken me. I should've been yours, you should've been mine.