love with fear

love is supposed to be kind but has bounds, too the love I knew came with disappointment, pain , abuse, and so much criticism and manipulation of the love I gave 💔 vulnerability now scares me, yet I desire it so deeply my heart doesn't wanna cry anymore, and neither does my soul for fear terrifies me more than simply being by myself my spirit heals but sometimes falters at self-doubt ,shame, and insecurity For you are scared to love yet you know how you deserved to be loved Yet I still want love, but vulnerability scares me because I'm afraid to be judged, critised, and completely, be lied and dishonest too because I simply wasn't good enough for someone or you for being me To be left for,cheated on, neglected on ,gave up on, disprected or lost trust in because simply you felt me being myself wasn't good enough for you to love love will always love, but pain will make make fear be the reason why it's hard to want love again from someone else . love is sought for but I choose my solidarity and peace before someone else's loves breaks me again