love, please love

when your someone who wants to love and love hard, but love is worn and teared after 16 long years, I want to give you love, the mushy gushy love, but I'll wait for the one, I'll know it's him when I see him, he will give me the love I lack, surprise me because he loves me so, his words will match his feelings, overwhelmingly so, maybe its all my love that's keeping me going, maybe its ignorance but I lack, that simple like thing I want isn't as simple as I put it, it's dangerous, unknowing. my love with you is worn still, I wish I could give you any, for you have mistaken my love just like a stranger, you feel to me just how everyone else treats me. but still I wait, blind, unlooking, no one here knows how to love me, how to I tell or show them so?