Love or trap?

Is this love or a trap? Because everytime I drop I fall from a cliff without a stop I get weaker in a snap Tick tock time is ticking Click click time is running I need to be sure of what I want Let my heart decide from every start I have learned my lesson I dont need to live through it again Because once is the limit Twice is beyond my limits You are always fleeting And I am always staying You are always fading away But I never leave your way. You give me hope then disappear in a brink Like smoke that promised it would stay Again, is this love or a trap That I keep walking into anyway You light me up just to go dark You pull me close then let me fall And every time I ask my heart It answers even though it knows it all