love, or hate?

love, and hate hate that I love you as the world shifts does my love ever change? I can't lift my own desires some people desire sex but for me I desire love. I may never stop loving. and I hate that I cannot closure is painful so is love I'm scared to love can't even hate why am I burying myself in a drink? maybe I just need a stress relief can't even smile can't even sleep it's painful that your even loving me. 1,2,3,4 is this what my life stands for? is this what I get for being yours? 5,,6,7,8 years gone by why do I hate? I must know what my fate my shows near the start. don't be late.