Love or friendship?

What is love? Love, it feels like you're on top of the world at first. Having someone beside you even at your worst. Hearing an "I love you" from them, is my heart going to explode? Hugging, Holding hands, hanging out, going on walks. But wait? Isn't this going a little too fast? This is not how I pictured how love is craft. A slow burn romance, is what I want. Not something I can get used to real fast. I want to love once, find my true love that will last. But then when you're happy, there will always be someone out there just to ruin what you have. Jealousy, a new emotion I never knew I could not overcome. They played games, stayed up late, talked for hours, does he really think this is ok? It's worse to believe when he did all those fun things with your so called "best friend". Someone you thought you could trust but at the end she's just another big fuss. "What is love"? She asked. Of course I never said any of those words out loud out loud, for I am not worthy to loose someone like her.