Love bites

Meeting my love after he was on a trip, lipstick mark on his lips, I feel my heart being rip, when I saw those love bites on his neck, what the heck! this doesn't feel right, I hold my chest tight, head is feeling light, there's a lump in my throat head is filled with thoughts of how I devote myself in this relationship I feel that if I speak I'll break down infront of him, haha [ laughed with tears in my eyes] he didn't notice though, this doesn't feel right, I hold my chest tight, head is feeling light, finally I made it home, feel like I was roaming for years I'm holding in all these emotions that I can't even articulate to anyone, it hurts, my tears fall uncontrollably when I made it infront my room door inside that dark room I felt safe, so I let my build up emotions out, it still hurts but not as much as trying to hide my emotions infront of him.