Love and/or Pain

we talk about love we talk about pain we talk about both some have experienced true love some have experienced true pain and for some souls it's true love and true pain it's like, you can't look away from the person but all they do hurts you but you just can't keep away because the feeling of true soulmate well it's overwhelming but we forget regret and misery after you realize that in their eyes you just like anyone else it's miserable and you feel true pain a hint of regret and a lot of unspoken words but you feel love, but it's not true love it's comfort is true love or true pain maybe just misery and regret but all my heart feels is emptyness you who I loved so dearly owned my heart for you it was like any other heart beautiful and naive but all you could offer me was your pain your anger, hatred towards the humanity and hint of loneliness I can't call you my dear or my second half maybe even from the very start or even before we met it was an illusion I'm left wondering if was clouds or cage maybe just the society around me that made you hate me too but I'm thankful for anything you offered because if I would regret it I would not be here