Love and lies

If only you knew how much I loved you. How much I sacrificed. How much I fought. How much I wished. I gave you up for your happiness. Bit even now... I love you. I'll sacrifice. I'll wish. I think to myself, "Maybe one day... we could try again?" It's... funny, really. How easy it was for you to move on. How easy it was to say I love you to someone else. How easy it was to crawl into their bed. While I'm still here... picking up my heart. You didn't cheat. But, I still feel betrayed. Was what you said a lie? "I love you." You said. Did you? "I can't live without you." You said. Looks as though it is easy to do. "I wouldn't lie to you..." You said. And you DID. I chose YOU over everyone. I waited for YOU. I looked out for YOU. I gave YOU everything I was. And I wasn't enough... Not enough for you to think about me at least once before you left. Im selfish. I did this for you, and Im sad you did what I wanted. Im stupid. Worst of all, Im mad. Im mad you. Because you didn't cheat. You just lied, I found out after I unbinded myself from our partnership. But I can't hate you. I... can only hate me. I was blind. I looked over red flags. You say we are still great friends, But are we? Was that a lie, too?