Love and care for him

I can't have this happen to me. Please don't let me let him go. Don't let me lose him,and have to let him go. I just can't it break my heartbreak me. It would be hard on us both me and him. So don't let this pain happen. Don't let this heartbreak happen. I just can't face this please God doesn't anyone get that? Yes, I might not be able to look after him, after a while. But I'm managing it now, so please, Lord, don't let things get worse. So God, please help me make sure I be able to keep him. And take care of him if I had to let him go. I hope someone can love him. Love him more than I ever could and take better care. But I want to be the one to love him and take care of him. Even if things are crazy like money issues all. Please let me be the one to love and care for him.