love

you call me love, but I feel as you don't love, you say you aren't gay, but you say you love me, you say you like men, but I'm not a man, I wonder if your lying, when you say you aren't, I live you but I feel as it's a game, until I think of all the times you made me laugh, and giggle, whenever we are near you always seem to put me in a good mood, and you spoil me alot, and you say you love me, but you don't wanna date me, do you actually love me, or am I entertainment for you? sometimes I can't help but to question if your love is real or not