Love

I can't hold this in, it needs to go. for once, I'm gonna let my feelings flow. what I'm gonna say, better perk up your ears, I'm gonna talk about a girl I've loved for five years. fuck it, I can't rhyme what I'm about to say. back when I was in eighth grade, one of the friends I've made was this girl. she was the most beautiful person I've ever laid my eyes on. the way her hair looks, how it runs down her back, the way her eyes look when she'd look at you. it just tugs on my heart to see her around. as we entered highschool and met new people, I tried to get over her, I even developed feelings for other girls. but I would always see her face, her smile. oh God, the way she smiles. it just feels so right. now I'm a year after highschool and everytime I see her or even talk to her, I feel a pain in my chest. like my heart is trying to tell me something. at some point, I had to wake up to reality and understand that she just doesn't see me the way I see her. thinking about it just gives me heavy breathing and that same pain in my chest. why does it hurt so bad? is this really what love feels like? if so, why does it hurt so much?