love?

Maybe you never loved me Maybe my heart was too heavy that your hands couldn't hold it unlike the burden that was keeping me up Maybe it was conditional only and you were waiting for the right second for your arms to not wanna hold me anymore If the silence that falls after I speak is what you're made of And if all my words have fallen for years on empty words and deaf ears I won't take it If I'm too weighted like stones and bricks and I'm simply just not worth your time Or the time of anyone who's ever claimed to love me then so be it My love came in like a wave too strong and too intimidating The want to protect you and provide you with care and love was too much yet never enough My love was filled with words that held secrets not even my touch could tell you The feeling of happiness I'd get when you smiled rivaled any gift you had ever gotten me If it happens to be that everyone I've ever loved does not love the way I do that's the burden I'll hold As I stare at myself I see my replacement you found and I realize I can't compete with a perfect version of myself