"lost words "

I took all the pills I could .....I did it all with a smile so vile .....it was vital to keep ...... I drift .... and sit.....here thinking and thinking life's just a game that keeps on reapting....but I.... can't breathe.......not when I see ur ....keys ...... inside my 👀 eyes......stuck between like food in teeth ...like white on sheep..... like time ....falls .......... I ask depression ..why she's growing inside me.... constantly a light flickery blinding, sliding, shining unholy light of a .....wolf ...to be ... bought before the times .. where writing ✍🏾......back before food was enticing.....back before storms came with lighting ...back before black and white was conflicting....back before... dinosaurs and shitty... depictions... with massive descriptions....I take pills all day everyday but don't worry it won't kill me it's just a prescription....it's just another day with....this pain i call ....sissy ....I can't say i like living, me and him we are distant........I scream on and scream on but .. nothing could save me....... nothing new would phase me the cold no longer shaking......I try..to understand....my ...self the more I try ...the more ...degrading.....