lost soul

life has been tough lately physically and emotionally honestly I feel like mentally I'm not myself anymore my heart is sore I don't cry out no more all I do is hide in my room when situations get tough and close the door I only come here when I need to let out my tears in words express my fear in tears of rhythm I try to find the calm but the storm always hits me out of nowhere I think of that one person who use to make me feel whole again washing away all of my pain with just one hold when the nights turn out to be cold I try to hide it in the rain but it just show even more I miss them in the chaos of life where their smile use to change my entire life