lost in you ?

what am I doing ? I dont even know I tell myself am I lost I dont know who am I?, I dont know there is so much I dont know about myself but if there is one thing I really do know it that I love you but sometimes it feels like I'm drowning in the hope of trying to find myself in you wen I'm with you I try to be the best me if there even is an good part of me most of my live I have always been the reject the odd one out I'm so use to being the problem It doesn't even hurt eny more but when I'm with you I feel loved I feel like I belong I dont know what this is an sad letter or ans sad poem I dont even know if I'm sad or happy maybe I'm past broken can you fix somthing that was never right in the first place