lost again

yeah I'm grateful even though Im never sure, will my actions turn to life or will my life never return been fucking up so bad Everything's a fuckin blur Don't know how to put it Cuz the bullshit I be doing risking Paradise in my hands so fucking stupid walking on thin ice even tho I'm on fire some how I make it out alive call it super power my hands full with just what I need trying hold it together but I'm letting go cuz getting harder breath few words a few thoughts this isn't who I used to be this isn't who I used to be been floating so long I've lost my direction to get up out of here I must aim for perfection