lost

I'm lost. Again. In this room full of people, i look for nothing, but my bed, and a pen. A bed that's damp, from extracted tears A pen that writes, reducing these fears— Once again, I am lost. My heart starts to go numb just when it was starting to "defrost." The sparks in my eyes felt like fire as it went to my heart, My mind races again, looking for a way for me to hit restart. I am lost. Or so I think i am—but no. I am found. By the darkness and the shadows from down below, I was found by the petrichor after the storm hit inside me, I am found— at the same time lost, in the beauty and the depths of the deepest sea. Here i am, lost. Looking for the brightest light, i am lost in the darkness. Overthinking everything, problems created by my hearts' abruptness. Searching for a way out, i need someone through this madness... but Taking time to remember, people brought me here. They're the greatest actress... I lay down, and in the deafening silence, my heart tries to scream— Looking at the faintest light above me, everything felt like a dream.. With my mouth shut, my words found their way through my pen... Waking up, my eyes lingering in this room filled with people, here i am, lost. Again