Lost

The evil 1 got me again. He searched and found a way to get in. A way that is closest to my heart. He knew just how to get me from the start. The fear that I have inside that runs to my soul. it devoured me true. Then I'm blinded by my emotion that slowly takes me over. Any thought process that is normal is thrown out the window straight to the ocean. Its gone. No going back to that place where my brain has lacked. Lacked the strength to put things in perspective. Its no normal beast, it's came to collect my peace. My soul, my life.. Oh how I long for my release. Where my heart is safe at my own peaceful place. I don't know such as that. I look around see where I'm at. I'm back in my bandage taken so far down so I can't see my way back. Lost in this world now doing without a way to survive. It has lurded me back in. No need to cry or pitch a fit. I already know what I must do. Its so hard to walk in my shoes. I had it all then gave it away. It was my own free will that done this today. Now I'm living with the regret, the place I gave away upset. I will place it in the back of my mind. Now on my path of self destruction, I lack the feelings to be discovered. I let the devil deceive me..