Lost ?

Did I lost in the lights or in the dark ? My soul wants peace , My mind wants revenge , And my heart is battling between these two. I am numb now, like a dead body Can I hold still or drop down ? Now me is never the same where is my consciousness gone ? Will I end up like this or not ? I started to search for myself : Didn't I start to lose hope in everything ? Didn't I fulfill my responsibility or dream? When I looked myself in the mirror, it's smile started to fade. Neither is it my mistake nor I didn't make anything wrong. Is it a role that only I need to suffer? Didn't I get the love from my parents siblings or friends ? Started searching herself everywhere but couldn't : Again and again I'm falling into the dark where I used to survive . And I ended up in the place where I never want to . Atlast people see what they think they need to see . Isn't it true?