lost

i'm lost again. is this the end? darkness is all is see. the tears that want to rush down my cheeks, are tired if this relentless pain. all i wanted was love and peace. all i needed was some rest. i'm torn. i think this is the end. but how can i say that? i've never given up. why is it different this time? ooh if only you were here. the pillar that kept me standing. i seek only gods forgiveness now. all i need is my faith. i hope this is not the end.