losing myself

4 months was enough to changed me The confident, good riddance me The one that speaks of her mind In ever situation with ease I can't put words of how it affected me like a jenga, my trust came crashing down Do you even care at us at all? Just like that you trusted them over us. Never once you reached out asking ours. I wish you knew, all the things in our mind and hearts How we held back and keep ourselves in check Because we respected you way too much, it hurts. You made us question ourselves, You made us lose confidence in our own. We knew we did what's best in that situation But now, I dont know anymore. Did we? It doesn't even matter anymore Nothing is worth it anymore Its exhausting And im tired. I hope my silence is defeaning. I hope my silence reaches you I dont mean it to hurt you. But I think it's my only way. I cant speak it out anymore I cant construct and communicate. You made me lose myself, Lose all my confidence you built. You, who raised me like this. It hurts that it end up like this. It shattered me in every sense. It makes me want to run away Can I go? Your presence suffocates me. Your presence hurts me. Its strangling me to be the person im not.