losing control of the mind

loosing control can be hard, kick in the gut. how do let go, what would happen. there are a few songs that help, the words are right but wrong. situations played out through out the mind. they always don't end the way you want them too. what not to say, what to say at all. I don't know who I've become, where I would be. no one will ever know what's going on when you loose control of your mind. that can lead to life spiraling out of control. thinking clearly, loving true, and spiritual. it's all fuzzy when you loose control. the depression, anxiety, hopelessness, how to enjoy the fullest of life is gone.