Lose it

Will I be free? Will I let it go ? Losing myself even more Has it been left or is it still stuck ? I made it wrong long ago , Now it's dead and gone . Shouldn't I must be treated the way; I have to be ? When will everything be fine I really deserved the pain . So, I blocked my line . The day I wanna disappear Realising it all , consumed by fear Bleeding heart is pumping too fast Thoughts of my own funeral tragedy What about the life I promised to me? Losing at the point of three ; Is it necessary? Thinking about it every day and night , Chasing the light , losing the fight.