lord...I need you...

I know you see where I am, I am filling up w painful memories unwanted memories of the pain over the years. I pushed I need help w clarity I need help w control it's burdening me, now I sit here in tears w unwanted voices and presence of my past and present. please help please send me your hand I don't know how stomach this is not the same but it's worse. I pray for guidance I pray for strength, lord I got issues i need you. this anger isn't meant to be w my being please lend me the cure for this anguish. I don't want to go.. I don't want to lose the gift you blessed...