lord oh lord

does god really love me? why must I suffer this unbearable ache? I feel it everywhere, in my heart, and body, brain, mentality, everywhere in me. everyday I distance myself from god, I don't know why, maybe I'm in a phase or maybe I don't believe he even considers me as his creation. lord oh lord please, I ask you this, one more time. save me, I'm begging you, get me out, I cannot live like this anymore I cannot bear to live in a house of burning fury that pierces through my heart when they get the chance. I'm your forgotten creation, oh how foolish of me to be here on my knees begging to nothing but air.