Looking back

Looking back Looking back at those texts u sent,to wondering what have I done again. Looking back at your smile,to now wondering was loving you worth losing my smile. Looking back at the touch of your hands,to now Looking at why didn't I even let u into my heart like that. Looking back at the compliments that made me smile,to now realizing you didn't mean it at all. Looking back at who u had,to feeling like everything I had give and done was never enough. Looking back at what you had said and done. but there was only a girl who loved you so much that after what u did still didng make her leave no matter what. I'm looking back at all the joy and pain I went through just to keep you happy I looked back for the last time and said :"loving you was the best and worst part of my teenage life." but I took those words back to realize what i said but i burned those pictures that I had kept from the day we met. from loving u to not wanting to hear your voice. To realizing that u only loved me when I was the only choice and you knew that because I never left,even when you made me feel horrible and like there was not a peice of me that deserved anything.