"lonely" part 1

These days I only say That I am just okay Nothing is like the rain That keeps falling on my face Nothing is like the hate I own for the word okay Loneliness in my veins feel like I'm in a race Who is lonely more wins it It's hurting me It's hurting me Tho I have alot of friends But why do I feel Like a lonely girl with tears Someone once told me Don't stay alot in your room You will always be lonely And Feel like everyone hates you But dear that is not true Didn't listen to that person tho And here I am in the dark Looking at my friends From a small hole in the door Looking from the fence To see who's lighting more I never give a hand I think that's something they don't want Dreaming about my family Abandon me Cause they're sick of me For me it ain't a mystery I know they don't want me Since the day I came here I Have no benefits I know I don't do a thing My brain is making thoughts It makes me cry and feel cold I keep praying to my lord To take me from this world My brain is feeling lonely What else should it do Everyone is screaming my name You did this didn't you