live once again

When I look back, I feel pain, sadness, shame, and guilt. That darkness, which I thought was joy and happiness, makes my body shake. I feel the sadness, of being lost for so long, as there's a limited amount of time left to fix it all. I would not go back into that darkness, but neither would change any of that too. I truly am grateful, for finding the way, to bring my spirit back where it belongs. And finally I live once again, with an open heart and faith.