life..

Already crying, watch me crawl into the shadows because of distaste of my own reflection, why, am I ? The baby you raised and carried for mouths of caddeling and breast feeding, It was all for nothing I'm losing this battle with a 5-inch knife stabbed through the ugly, brokeness. Why did you do this they ask, what was It all for ? I bet my life was one of many flaws, someone to watch me fall into the black abyss for which I came from, I'm sorry. My baby, my baby, she calls me,but what IifI can't fit Iintoher Idealization of what that means? Is this all a fantasy ? My body stoned to perfection .sn't e en that great, I wish to feel what Its lit' to be alive, how . Hown you hate your life ? they ask,but i, only they could see what became of me, my baby.. Tell them I am misleading a damaged part of a human being, fine. Whatever becomes of me, Is my islt right , You monster, you laugh as I weep, enjoyment Into otinto pain, can’t you hear me, I'm tired. I’ll just go away for a while till I fix the problem, oh wait It’s me. Why can't anyone notice that I am not me, I'm playing a character, “ daughter Is my star ”, “ he’s gotten so handsome,hasn't he ? “ “ It’s fine,"he says while shaking, nervous from the turbulence