letting go

The very thought of of you races through my mind continuously. At times I have to take a break from it all. sit down at home cry a few tears begin to smile. On the days that carry so many memories those Good times along with the ones we thought we would never get away from. I am going to cherish everyone of throughout life as I l on without you. Feeling from what many said it would be what would separate us forever to creating and unbreakable highly emotional long-lasting bond the world would never begin to understand it in fact one shared by a father and his daughter. Not knowing how to feel things or understand how someone who has such a powerful impact filled with countless memories and someone else's life could just be ripped away never to return terrified me. Left grease drinking feeling guilty lost and alone not only shutting down even more than before to the world I knew but becoming someone who distant quiet and unrecognizable slowly losing the person you want for to always love and protect above all else in life. Knowing you would never come back has torn me apart for days weeks, even years I have moments where I have to break away from reality and just think of the times once