letter to self 2

today I realized something some of my friends are not really my friends well it's something I knew but I refuse to accept and it hurts so bad when I realized someone a consider a close friend seem to like she didn't consider me as her close friend and I was so based I cried in the phone talking to my other friend and I feel like what we had throughout high School for something special but it's seemed like I was just a in her growth I'm happy for her but I feel like I wasted my time on someone who never love me back this way I love her and she's my friend such a point yet she chose someone who made me feel small and wanted to destroy me just because of how I looked and Sounded I hope a happiness but without me I'm so done pretending I'm going to run for my dreams I'm not going to hold anyone at my hands and move on .