letter to my mom

All I want is to be able to let this go, But any time I try, a new thing comes to show. Every time I expect something of you, There is something else that is entirely new. I just want to hug you and let the past fade, But every time I get close, there’s another game you play. Why can’t you just hold me and let me heal? Why do you pretend to be something so unreal? You are supposed to be kind and treat me right, But every time we talk it’s an argument or a fight. It shouldn’t be this hard to show you my love. Why can’t you be the person that I dreamt of? I thought you were perfect, I thought you were kind But now all I see is a nightmare in disguise