Letter to CG

this wasn't the first time someone got with another and treated me like a mime so why was I still so blind I swear there are thoughts in my mind six months of i love you texts just for everything to go down like a train wreck I saw you being secretive but it was covid so we had gotten together online so maybe that's just how you were live not that we hadn't been friends before you had just decided to open another door and yeah I had thought about you like that but when you asked me out I was still taken aback but I guess your off and on girl had just moved so what did you have to lose but guess I wasn't a good replacement you could have just told me and off I would have went but instead you smiled at me even when sitting with her and I asked my friend that was also her friend what was going on but she wouldn't tell me why couldn't I see what was right there because at night you would still text me so I gaslighted myself trying to believe that you and me were still a thing maybe you just forgot we were together thought you broke up with me but I should have known better but I found out because a girl asked me "aren't they so cute together?" so then I went to the other girl and she told me oh well go to hell