Let's survive

I don't know what's happening inside of me, 18 years gone yet no joy I see. A piece of happiness still out of my hands, Like footprints fading away in the sands. Maybe I just miss you more than I say. Can you come back or did you go away? Oh,You are already with me, yet never mine A shadow of love I can't redefine. You never confessed in words I could keep, You said you loved me, but the promise feels weak. Is your love hidden, invisible to eyes? Or just an echo that slowly dies. At the end of it all, truth comes unwinding- He is the one living and I am just SURVIVING.