Let's say

Life is crazy but I won't let it drive me crazy. I screw up too many times to count. But I don't want to do this anymore. Im trying to do better and be better. But it seems even when I do good, I do bad. I mean, it feels like what they see in me. is nothing but bad even when I try to do good. I need heavens' help to do better and be better. And have them see I can do and better. And not have the life I have now gone to say goodbye. To everyone, even those I do care for or those are important to me. I want all to be ok in every way let's say.