Let me in the box

Let me in the box I beg, I want to be like them. Having inside jokes and joyful plans, not sitting alone in bed. I want to see the world with friends, and mess around with laughs. Not sitting in the same old room, rotting until I pass. I say that I'm just lonely, but I bring it on myself. Declining invites all the time, and brushing off nights out. I wish I didn't do all this, I wish to be like them. To get inside that box somehow, and just to make some friends. Let me in the box I beg, I'll give anything I swear. I just can't take it anymore, it kills me to compare.