let me & it be🌸

mother father don't raise me as if you're living life through me. Please allow me to be myself. allow me to discover<3 allow me to make mistakes allow me to go though it. why do I have to be perfect? why was dad living a lie? being a pastor with suits praising God all the way in public and a wife beater in private! what are you teaching me? no actually, what did you teach me? You taught me that it's okay to lie. It's okay to be manipulative. Trust no one. Stay away from men because men will ruin you. Lol ... genuine friendships? A fail. I still don't know if what I'm doing is right. I don't know... I don't know ... these 3 words are the most words that ring in my head a lot and as responses to answers. Wanting to be seen by people because I have not yet accepted myself.(I don't know how to) A lot of work, the task is too much and I'm already dealing with a lot. maybe a lot of us are going through this too "Stand for what you believe in" I'm trying but how do you stand for what you believe in if you don't even believe in anything anymore. #is there a life booklet or somethn???