"let just be friends"

I don't wanna feel this way thinking of you when I know it'll all be in vain I wanted a "friendship" nothing more nothing like an ending now you've got me staring too much at my phone smiling too much at your silly jokes you're slowly climbing them walls crumbling down my guarded soul must just be one your lame jokes forbidden hope please don't take me home here you are like a knight in shining armor but I know the truth cuz have been a fool you're here too to leed me through so that when the time comes you'll leave me blue broken beyond your hidden proof for once I just need a healing fruit cuz I'm scared of deceit and lie for even "father" is no where to be found He promised he'd come back thanks to "mama" I didn't burn out so when you say please mean it cuz empty words are like needles that will slowly Peirce my "heart" leave it blooded leave it bleeding what are we then "friend"? then stop my mind from thinking evil you've shown me who you are so any expectation will be my misery!.